Saturday, June 25, 2011

2 years already!

Well today is your 2nd Birthday! You came into this world June 25 2009 at defied every odd in your 19 months here on earth! Today was hard not celebrating with you but i know your always in my heart, daddy ,mommy and sister stil celebrated your life today, with family and friends.We had a BBQ,watched your video,listened to your songs,released balloons with 2 notes on them hoping someone will find them so we can raise more awareness about trisomy 18! and had cake it was a bittersweet day.I love everything about you, you have changed me for the better .I love you son. Forever.

Friday, June 24, 2011

You. Nolan.

Wow! i cant believe today is the 2 years ago we were getting ready to meet you, this time 2 years ago mommy was starting labour in the hospital.Straped to monitors and doctors around talking about the plan.I enjoyed hearing your heartbeat and feeling your last kicks and wiggles before you would enter this world.Daddy and me were terrified of the unknown since you had Trisomy 18 we were told your chances of living were only 5-10% but had hope you would make it just open your eyes and see us even it were a moment.You did it all big boy, tomorrows your 2nd birthday,sadly we are celebrating it without you...but i know you are in my heart it will be a day to remember you with family and some friends, although im crying i am smiling, smiling because you gave us so much to smile about, mommy is just sad that i cant hold you, wipe your tears away,change your diaper,bathe you,play toys with you,walk with you ...everything we did together i miss.But i thank you everyday for the memories you gave us, you are amazing and have touched so many in your short journey , and still are teaching people! We love you baby boy, your sister always talks about you, and is very protective over your things like if we have kids over and they go into your room and play with your toys she gets upset and ays,"thats my nolies toy!" she loves and misses you so much.