Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Well it finally happend! Nolan mommy had the sweetest dream about you, i have waited 3 long months just to feel you in my dreams,just to spend a little time with you.It was so nice to see you well.I was carrying you around in the house and it was snack time so i set you in your highchair, you were so excited! I put a yogurt and spoon your tray and you gave me the look like, arent you going to feed me? I wanted to see if you could do it yourself, iwatched you pick the spoon up put it in the container of yougurt and feed yourself!! you made a huge mess, but it was a wonderful mess seeing the huge smile on your face.once you were done i picked you up and was holding you, i didnt want to put you down.I walked all day with you in my arms, everyone was asking how you came back, and i simply said,"the doctors made a mistake you werent really gone." You were soooo alive in my dream! i woke with a smile on my face! It was the best dream i had ever had. I love you, and i hope i have more dreams more often like this.It's nice having "our" time even if its dreaming.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Mama misses her sweet boy

Nolan, mama misses your sweet face.I enjoy all the memories you gave us i always smile and laugh telling people about the cute things you used to do that made you "nolie" how everymorning you would be kicking your legs in your crib when you seen me peeking at you through the bars.Or how when i would cook in the kitchen and you'd be next to me in your excersaucer looking up at me like i was the greatest mommy in the world.That look that daddy couldnt get over, daddy said,"i never seen another boy besides me look at you the way the nolan does,he looks at you like wow your really my mom" brought tears to my eyes you always stared at me like you wanted to just say thank you for the life i gave you.You were amazing litte man.I love you.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011


Could we ever forget your sparkling eyes
or the way you brightened each day,
or your smile
which is etched in our memories,
so you're never far away?
Could we ever forget
those priceless moments?
The answer, of course, is never.
For you were part of our lives
for a brief time,
but you'll be part of our hearts forever

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Inside Nolans Obituaries,this is what we wrote.

Nolan Alex Chisaakay-Soucy
"Our Fat Man"

Nolan was born June 25th,2009 in Edmonton,Alberta and was granted his angel wings on january 21st,2011,Due to complications of RSV and Bacterial Pneumonia.

The day our miracle joined our life is a day we will never forget.Nolan had fight wanted to show the world!Nolans life would seen too short to many,but those who were touched by him,understood that the quality of his life far exceeded the quantity of time in which he lived.His gentle smile could melt the hearts of those around him and though he never spoke a word,his voice and thoughts could always be heard.

Although Nolan had Trisomy 18, he possessed a strength and ability to overcome incredible odds and physical challenges.With his courage he led us to believe that each day is a blessing and an opportunity to create lasting memories.Nolan would spend hours cuddling close to those he loved so much.He enjoyed music, and listening to the sound of his sister Lexis laughter, which always made him smile.

With Nolans passing, we remind others that his life is one to be celebrated.Nolans Journey has not ended:a new chapter has just begun and although we will miss every minute of everyday,especially his beautiful smile, he will remail in our hearts forever!

Nolan is survived by his loving parents,Nathan and Amanda, and Big sister Lexi.Together forever in our hearts!